Time is flying and I am not ready

So yesterday after I finished feeding Canon and got him out of his high chair I felt baby #3 move. Then I realized holy smokes I am 18 weeks and almost at the 1/2 way mark. AHHHHH! I am excited for this baby, but really not ready for the time to be flying so quickly. Then as Katelyn and Canon are playing on the floor together I realize Canon is 9.5 months. I watched them for a moment thinking time is flying by all too fast. Katelyn is attempting to potty train, but that girl has a stubborn streak in her that is making it hard. (She gets it from her dad!) Canon is crawling everywhere and likes to try to stand on his own. I don't want my kids to grow up so fast!

Seeking out the Good

Canon has been having a rough few weeks. When I say this I am talking about his three ear infections with in 5 weeks and a cold with a horrible cough. I must say this has been a great learning experience for me it is testing my strengths and patiences with going days on very little sleep. I must say I have not done well at the task, but I have learned something. After the second ear infection he slept through the night two nights in a row. WAHOO! Well thursday night he was up most the night again crying and slept best with me continually rocking him. I was exhausted and just kept thinking please let this be teething and not another ear infection. Then the thought came to me that one day I will miss this. One day he won't be at home with me to hug, kiss, or even tuck him in at night. As I was thinking this Canon repositioned himself and wrapped his arm around my kneck. I got all emotional thinking if I could just retrain myself to think of the good in every situation how great my life would be. To be able to seek out the good and realize the important things. So as I rocked my baby in my arms I said a prayer thanking my Heavenly Father for moments like that. Then I just rocked my son in my arms and enjoyed the time that I was getting to spend with him. He is already so big and becoming more independent. I will take all the time I can get before he decides he is too big for me to hold him.