Frustrations

I have been working on losing weight for a while now and I am slowly dropping the lbs, but oh how I wish my body would like me. First it was my knee and I got a knee brace and was able to workout two days before my back went out on me while working out. It is hard. I am trying so hard to lose weight, but the hardest thing is not being able to function 100 percent for my family.

I promised Katelyn we would make pancakes today for breakfast and last night is when I threw out my back working out. So she comes in this morning and climbs into bed with me and I told her to be careful my back was hurting. She laid her head on my side and says, "mom I am sorry you hurt. Can we make the pancakes?" I started to cry remembering my promise the day before realizing I could barely move let alone stand up long enough to help her make the pancakes. My parents ended up coming and getting all the kids for me and I was able to leave and get my back adjusted. I still can only stand so long before I have to sit and rest. So I decided that even if I have to sit fifty times while we make some yummy pancakes tomorrow I will make sure she gets her pancakes. The disappointment on her face this morning has bothered me all day and I don't want to disappoint her. So we are making pancakes and we are going to have fun with them!